Thursday, December 6, 2012

What is my Purpose?

How do you even begin to answer this question? How do you classify your reason for existence? Do you list your accomplishments and say that it was your destiny to achieve all of those, when in reality it was your hard work and persisting practice that awarded you with the medal, title, or certificate? It's a good thing I need to write 750+ words, because there are so many approaches to this, I'm going to need it. 
I was born at a very young age (inside joke), to Corinna Katharine Young McBride and Steven Dale McBride. My first purpose would be to be the most amazing daughter I possibly could to them. Of course, they had parents and families, too. I need to be a good family member, and do things to make my family proud of me. My purpose is to be but a simple chain in the link, a branch on the tree, and a card with my signature on the holidays. But also, to be a supportive, encouraging, courageous person that is depended on when crisis or havoc strikes any person in my family.
            After being a daughter, would be that I am a sister. I am to live and learn because of the actions of Natasha Leigh McBride, and to pass them down to Kylie Katharine McBride. I am to be a good sibling, and to help them and protect them with all my might. My siblings are not totally dependent on me, nor am I on them, but having them is an amazing feeling to be able to have someone to lean on in a time of need. We may fight like complete idiots, but without them I would be completely lost and pretty clueless.
            The next step was going to school. Some people may not address schooling as part of their purpose, but without it, who would you be? You would know nothing, or very little that is, and you wouldn’t have a career. A part of my purpose is to finish my schooling and to become in whatever career I deem worthy of putting my knowledge, blood, sweat, and tears into. My sophomore year at Aurora High School, I found out I was pregnant, and even that didn’t stand in my way, but gave me a new reason to persist through high school and be able to walk across the stage, shake hands, and receive my diploma, my ticket to my future.
            As soon as I saw those two pink lines, I knew I had to do everything in my power to become the greatest person I could possibly be. I already had a job, which I still am working at, and began to really question who I was, and what my purpose was. Coincidence? I think not. On the first day of finals, junior year, my water broke as I was getting up to get ready for the day. [Great timing, Kia]. 6:15 in the morning, tired, and in active labor. What an awesome combination. About 8:00, checked into the hospital. Lots of watching TV, squeezing hands, and anxiety later, 3:00pm rolls around. Time to push. 3:22 pm. The most beautiful little girl was laid on my stomach. Kiannah.  A new reason to be a better person. She changed my everything. I had a new reason to finish school. I had a new reason to get a career. I had a new reason to be a responsible, respectable person. I know I slip every once in a while, but I’m a teenager and even though I need to be a great person for her, I know that I’m not perfect. But because of her, I keep TRYING. Every time I’m down, I know if I think about her my spirits will be lifted above the clouds.
            I decided really early on that being a mom was my main purpose. To be a good mom, and since I am a teen mom, I need to prove that not every teen mom is the same. I’m not going to resort to drugs or drinking. I’m not going to give up and give her up. I’m not going to lose myself. I’m going to take responsibility for the beautiful life that I have given life to, and to make her life the most amazing life she could possibly have. I never want her to question if I was trying my best. I want her to realize she can do anything in this life, and that she will always be good enough for anyone. I want to make a part of my purpose to show that some teens can do it, and some can do it well.
            I believe my main purpose in life is to be an exceptional family member and bettering the lives of my family.
Five Generations
Back row: Steven Dale McBride (3), Gilbert Dale McBride (2)
Front Row: Marjorie McBride (1), Britni Kay McBride (4), Kiannah Elsamarie McBride (5)
Kiannah Elsamarie McBride

Kiannah Elsamarie McBride, Corinna Katharine Young McBride, Helga Elsemarie Young, Britni Kay McBride
Four generation photo.

Kiannah's first trip to the zoo, with mommy, grandma, grandpa, and aunt Kylie.


1 comment:

  1. Britni,

    I definitely think you have found your purpose in being a mother, daughter, sister and exceptional family member (and a whole lot of other roles too!) I wish you so much luck and good fortune. How lucky Kiannah is to have you!

    Dr. English